Open Mouth, Insert Foot!

Yep... we've all been there... all done that... except when it's happened to you have you felt the remorse you should have felt or did you just blow it off like what you said was something someone else was thinking but didn't have the nerve to say it themselves?

Today I did just that... I instantly felt remorse but instead of saying something to right my wrong, I just left it alone. I didn't apologize because I was afraid of making it a bigger issue, and since people, having realized I said something really stupid, went right on to another topic as if not to park there and make it any worse, I followed in suit. My words were such that I'm almost certain I insulted someone; hurting them. i can say that hurting someone is the absolute LAST thing I would ever want to do and my regret is overwhelming. It wasn't just the remorse that had me by my heart strings though, it was the fact that I usually hold tight to a scripture that asks the Lord to guard the tongue... Psalm 19:14 "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord, my rock, my redeemer"... which for a while had been so very helpful in my attempts to "bite my tongue" in my anger or frustrations, or when I wanted to participate in gossip and such. Somewhere along the way that verse has gotten lost and because of that my tongue has run a'muck!

It's good to know that my immediate conviction is still there... though why would He ever leave me? It is written, "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deut. 31:8. I take comfort in knowing that no matter how off the beaten path I stray, He'll be there to lovingly, yet firmly guide me back. Thank you Lord that you hold me accountable in my words and actions. Thank you Lord that I felt that conviction and that I was able to recognize it instantly. I pray that you'll continue to help me watch my mouth, my words, my thoughts, my attitude and my witness Lord. I pray that whatever light has burned out in me you will once again relight and have it burn brighter to glorify you. Lord I pray that the person I may have hurt will forgive me and see past my short comings and know that I'm truly a compassion and loving person. Lord I thank you for the times when things are all butterflies and rainbows, but I also thank you for the times when weathering the storm seems to be so hard sometimes because it's then we're refined and feel your closeness so much more.  In Jesus Name I pray...